vulnerable

sitting here,
quietly
in the periphery of happiness
time spent mourning
in the moonlight's sad luminiscence
vulnerable
as the air of oscillating doom
I have nothing left to lose
since the moment
you told me
goodbye
I searched within the depths
of my broken spirit
for just one reason why
I sat there,
as tears filled my eyes
symbolizing some form of emotion
that I now acknowledge I felt
refusing to let you know
how I ached inside
words
that could make us
or break us
I fought to hide
They could explain my actions
or arbitrate my point
I wanted to come to you
and fix the mess
but I knew that I couldn't
the deed was done
my time
supposed to be spent with you
now in jeopardy
I recede to my fate
because I was with her
I sit, looking foolish now
looking a melodramatic mess
No satisfaction does it give me now
But to let my tears fly free
on this paper,
on this moistened page...
just crying for me
Is it a shame to lose this love
before it has begun...
Why did it come to this?
Your sweet words,
symbolizing hope
even your comforting tone
God, I already miss
The nights we shared,
the tindrel place that we found
to exist together in
is now quietened
Your love was my meal,
Your words were my food
and your smile-
my drink
For dessert I savored your kiss
You knew me like no other
I was so proud to say
with a vestigial of truth
even if to myself...

I love you