A SP EXERCISE.....STEP OUTSIDE YOURSELF (situation3)

Situation 3:  A young woman is sitting on a park bench outside of the local clinic in her city with tears rolling down her cheeks.  She went in for her routine HIV tests and now is holding her results in her hands.  She just found out that her results are postiive. 

What is going through her mind?

 

Damn,
there goes my life
my family
all my friends
What in the Hell do I do now?
How could this be?
Oh my God!
This can't be happening to me
I might as well be dead
I know damn well he didn't give it to me
He said there was no way
he had anything.
That he was clean
He looked clean
Damn, All for a piece of ass!
What am I gonna do?
I know
I'm gonna leave town
After a while
everyone will know
I'm gonna be sick
thin as Hell
They gonna be looking at me
Like I'm death walking
They won't wanna drink after me
They won't wanna be around me
They gonna look at me funny
Damn, took me long enough to get this shape
Now, It's all gone
My life is gone...
I'm gonna die
I can't take this!
What I got....10 years tops?
I can't kill myself....
Who can I tell?
Who would understand...
(Tears streaming down my face
uncontrollable crying...)
Wiping tears away....
Silence.

Ok, I'm not gonna kill myself
I'm not gonna run away
I'm gonna take this one day at a time
I don't know how I will tell my family
maybe I shouldn't even tell them
They will only say it's because of the way I lived
They all gonna say it's my fault
And I got this from trusting someone
and not being careful
Not protecting myself
How many ads have I seen
And thought it would never happen to me
I'm clean
I know I'm clean
I take my tests, and use precautions
But, Hell..I still got it
It...HIV+
Damn, it sounds like death
But, hey, it don't have to be...right?
They got medicines out here...
I just won't ever get sick
I will just take my meds religiously
There goes sex!
Damn
That's what got me in this predicament
I just had to have him...
I played Russian Roulette
with my own freaking life!
Now lok where I am
Probably won't even see his ass again
Maybe he don't even know
A walking time bomb
Oh my God...

what am I going to do now...