KEYS TO MY HEART, PART 2

It was a long flight to Los Angeles.  I didn't know why I had accepted the position to do a training course so far away from all my friends.  Maybe deep inside, I wanted to get away.  This gave me freedom to think, and make a move where everyone wouldn't be suspect of me.   I love Gina with all my heart, but I think she is so overbearing sometimes.  We get to this place.  And freeze.  Almost like it's a danger ahead sign coming up, that only one of us sees.  Mostly her.  I mean, I know I'm a very outgoing person, and it might look like I'm cheating, but I never have.  It frustrates me to be accused of something I'm not doing.  Almost makes me wanna do it.  I settle down in my seat, put my head back, and close my eyes.  The music, along with this pleasant feeling of calm just soothes me.  I think about her.  I miss her already.  What is it about absence that makes the heart grow fonder.  The way she is, when she is loving, is worth all the stress we go through. 

Take for instance, my birthday.  She made sure I had a blast, and a half.   We had discussed what we were gonna do--invite friend over for a cozy dinner, and retire afterwards.  So, that's what I planned for.  No surprises, right.  Now we live near the hottest black gay spot in the whole US of A. which is Atlanta.  And, She managed to get Gladys Knight to sing, in our home.  Don't ask me how she did it, but she did.  Everyone was so surprised, and told me I better keep that woman, because she had potential to make the rest of my days just as thrilling.  I loved how she was so spontaneous.  So upbeat.  Never let things get her down, and my happiness was always the 'bottom line'.  I felt safe in that aspect.  So, why am I on a flight, moving away from her, for 90 days, and perhaps, for good?  I don't know. 

I pick my bags up, and head for my car.  They have my accommodations when I get to the office.  This is a nice place out here.   Might as well get used to it; I'm gonna be here for a while.  I plan to shop, and sightsee when I'm not working.  After I get settled in, I'm gonna find a club to go to. A girl needs to unwind after working like a slave all day.  Get my drink on, you know...

I got to my room, opened the door, and it was beautiful inside.  But, no smell of food, and no indication that anyone would be waiting for me, or expecting me.    I put my purse, and keys, down on the table, and walked around the place where I'm supposed to be calling home.  I miss Gina.  Hmmmm.  The only noise is the clicking of my shoes, as I walk across the hardwood floor.  Down the hall to my bedroom.  I stop at the door, leaning up against it.  I stepped out of my shoes, walked over to the bed, crawled up in it, and lay flat on my back.  A thousand memories came flashing back.  Everything I went through, to get to this place in my life.  To have it all, and in the shadows is someone who I can't get along with.  I stayed there, in the quietness, for endless moments.....until my phone rang.  I jumped up to go get it out my purse.  Who could this be?  I picked it up, looked at the name.  Gina.  I sigh.  "Hello Gina, I made it out here.  I'm in my room"   'Good, I was just worried about you.  I mean, I knew you would be okay, but I wanted to make sure you got out there safely.  I don't intend to bother you, I promise.  It...ahhh just hit me, that you're really gone.  I can handle this, I really can.'   "Look, Baby, I miss you already too.  For the first time, in a long time, I have no one to come home to.  When I walked in here, there was no sign of life, food cooking, or your smell in the place.  So, I am adjusting, too"   ' You really miss that?  Wow.  My test is gonna come, at night, and when we used to shop together, and hang out with our friends.  Now I know not to look for you, and I can't accuse you of cheating.  LOL.  Cuzzzzz you're thousands of miles away, and......sigh.....you're on your time now'  

"Gina, it might not take as long as you think.  After I get things worked out, I'm planning on coming back.  This is not home, for me.  I don't know anyone out here, not even the people I will be working with.  The company thought I would be the best choice, and I jumped on it.  We needed time apart.  Don't you agree?"   ' I have to.  And, you could have just broken it off, instead of giving us time apart, so for that--I thank you.  I hope this time apart helps us.   I don't want nobody but you.  I love you, Brenda.  I love you so much.  Okay, before you hang up, I'm gonna go now.  Just making sure my girl got there safe, and you are, so I'm good.  If you think about me, call me; you know how to get me. Okay, lata.  Be good.  Knock em out out there, you hear me?'  "Gina, I can feel the fear in your voice; I know you.  But, we gonna be alright. okay?  Just take care of you, and tell my , well our, friends, I said a girl is doing it.  Okay, time to get settled in.  Talk to you soon.  Be sweet.  Make sure you eat right, and stay away from the fast food.  LOL.  Bye Baby"  I hang up. 

Caught myself, lying there, reminiscing again, so I jumped up, took all my clothes off, and headed for the shower.  Turned the water on.  Adjusted it to just about as hot as I could stand.  Stepped over into the stream of steamy water, and let it run down on my body, christening me.   Cleansing my soul.  Tilting my head bac, I allowed it to cascade down my face, blending with the trails of tears that I could now, finally let flow.  It wasn't a sadness.  It was a release.  Of so much pressure.  So much that was wrong.  I was letting all the bottled up pain wash away from me. 

My body felt like mine again.  I cupped my breasts, and let beads of water beat against my nipples, hardening them.  I started to massage them both, sending waves of excitement all over my body.  Tingles of temptation that only Gina could fulfill.  But, she wasn't here.  It was just me, and this urge I have....to be satisfied.  I closed my eyes, and started at my face.  washing, and massaging.  Waking up every sense I had in my face.  Moving down to my neck, and shoulders.  I reached up to take the shower head, and aim the jet spray of water between my legs, by lifting one leg up, and open.  Mmmm.  Nice.  My clit throbbed, against the impact.  Didn't take long to arouse my own self.  I rinsed off, stepped out the shower, and dried off.  I was really wanting her now.  My nipples were calling her name, as was my pussy.  I ran my hands all down my body, remembering so many times, before we even dried off, we were kissing, and licking each other.  She never waited til I dried off.  She even would take me in the shower, or just as I stepped out.  We would have to just say 'time out' to get some sleep.  The tingling all over me, was calling me. 

I made sure the place was locked up, and headed for bed.  There, in my own pace, and for my own pleasure, I made love to myself.  I called out my own name, as I came.  Feeling Gina's hands on me with my eyes closed, I did things that I knew she loved to do to me.  I'm not sure how long I unleashed this need of mine, but I do know, my body missed me.  Missed my fingers, my hands.  My command.  I lay motionless, as sleep called me.  Felt so serene, that I just drifted off......