99 Reasons To Leave........ Roggy Moving Pic Challenge #16

Asking myself
why I let you in

Answering........'I was just as lonely as you'


99 reasons to leave....
why...inquiring minds want to know

should I
shouldn't I
bad love.....good love
which is the best?
a hundred hearts would be too few
to carry all my love for you
my massive vision...now crushed
checking my soul mirror
and I just know
my absence will be only a sign
of things to come.
my mind caught up
in a maze
.....watching the past...
and love
disappearing
as trees strain the windows of our existence
Life is but a dream anyway
..feeling like ashes from a cigarette half-smoked
while listening to half-truths at half time
Ash tray filled....with ifs
ands
and butts
whispers of...
what about us
what happened to us
when is it gonna be
about us
I waited for ever....
but ever
never
came

It hurt that you couldn't see me
It hurt that you couldn't wait for me
It hurt that you couldn't remember me
and all we did to be free
I had so many reasons to leave
but you beat me to it
I cried the first time you left.
I waited for your return.
I waited
and waited
on the doorsteps of everything
I thought we could be
you came back
but you didn't really
come home


" I can call love by its name
When thine arm is wrapt about me;
But even love seems not the same,
When I sit alone, without thee.
Dost thou love me, my Beloved? "
~Elizabeth Barrett Browning~

Alone here
where I usually am
recessing in my thoughts
waging a vigil for you
little time logged sleeping,
or doing anything else...but thinking about you.
got 99 reasons to leave
and only one to make me stay

praying for you
In quiet confidence...I waited.
and waited...
and waited
and
waited

What went wrong..this time?
Why couldn't you for once
believe in only me..
only me
only
me


called you...
no answer..
no last goodbye

I can't take this anymore


better for both of us
if this time

I

close that door









jakuper (6/14/11)