Bigger Than Me.........SP Christmas Challenge

I don't want to die now
because I got too much to live for

It is only when I close my eyes
to the things I don't want to see...
that I miss the whole idea of tangibility
I cannot afford to close my heart
or keep my eyes shut
to what could be
Denial ruins my soul
and ruins me to possibilities
& new beginnings

My arrival,
as I pass through
my season of want and supplication
transitioning to what could be,
will only be
if I believe

I wanna believe
I gotta believe
I can't afford not to believe

As a child
the spirit of Christmas
gave me hope
It made me go to sleep
anticipating a tomorrow meant for me
I waited for answers
to the rest of my stories

I cannot hold on to life as it is
Time has broke me
My health is failing me
People I love...are leaving me
I want to be able to embrace change
like it was meant for me
like I prayed...earnestly,
like He heard me
and answered me


Like I got that one gift under my Christmas tree
meant for me
Like I stood under the mistletoe
and that dream..yea that one
came true
because I believed
in the spirit
of something

(Someone)

bigger than me







jakuper (12/21/10)