Silenced Hearts....Collab w/Epidomyofadiva

"...strange you always leave me
to my own mind,
leaving me drowning,
wanting more

ever so carefully you watch from afar
as if I'm your personal Chyna Doll

knowing neither of us will ever speak
a word of what goes on behind our
locked hearts and tainted souls

years have passed since we've
thrown our arms out
and
cast that key into the waters unknown

still we've never said good-bye,
though we've tried many times before "


stranger even...that in the life of my dreams,
just mentioning your name
'automatically' bring the stars out
Space creates a room big enough for you and I
and for what we used to need and want
I be hoping my smile...or one touch
is the key that fits the lock
of your present wants & desires
and that I am the match
to light your fires

Nice smile...why don't you try it?
It's just a lil something from this heart of mine
pretending to see through...to your heart,
moved by what motivates me
....feel me
Feel me....
breathing feelings
into your feelings,
into the presence of present difficulties
and light into the darkened & empty space between us
and how it mysteriously energizes me...
how your energy gives me...courage,
Courage...shown with pure & good intentions
removing the fantod
for future success
because that is what ignites you
Choices are lessons,
patience is a tester
and the mojo that teaches me
about what you really want

I find myself with a yeuk
dying to release the reigns of how to quiet your mind
while stirring it up at the same time
You got me feeling like a cheechako...
wanting to return
and reclaim what makes us feel like this
again and again


Intimate thoughts...emotionally fought
that I've been crazy thinking about for some time now
wind and rewind in my mind somehow
and...I can't break free of missing you
I miss you
Minim thoughts of you
and I tap my fingertips, restlessly,
against the mental painting
of us..harmonizing
subconsciously

No more tarrying
I see my door
my want has made my prognostications clear
Clearly I hear
a message from my soul:

you're in the driver's seat
and with little motivation from days of old
your power of engagement has swept me up
there's this flow...so sensual so sweet, so sensitive
that is all you...all up in my cup
It motivates me to no end
intoxicates me
in ways I can't defend
and it reserves the most marvelous secret
kept between two silenced hearts
..........









epidomyofadiva/jakuper 8/9/10