Dear GOD

Dear God

I come to you--the only Father I have known. I feel
right calling you DAD. Yeah, it's me, coming to You once more..in the
form of writing. I stop to thank You for my life, for the breaths that
I take for granted, for the world around me that I live in each day,
and take no thought of.

Something always happens to bring me
back to this place. This place of gratitude, and warmth. people talk
about You sometimes like you are nowhere around, like You don't see
what's going on, in the world. But, I see You. I see You in the
flowers, in the cool breeze that envelops me late at night. I feel Your
love in my face as I walk down the street. You know I be walking, and
praying, all the time. Only this morning, I'm sitting here, at my pc,
doing this as an exercise. I'm very much in the present, as I always
try to be with you.

I never need a reason to come to You. I just
do. I got friends who need You, my family that needs You, and I have
things I've asked for that I still believe will come.

The door
is half way opened, and I feel a cool breeze blowing past me. That must
be You. I plan to take a walk later on, like I always do...to feel your
ambiance all around me, minus the walls, the people here, and minus
distractions so I can tell You all the things I might forget, in this
letter....



Then, God, in the midst of what seems like
chaos, You send me a blessing. Something to remind me that You love me,
and others do too. Got me smiling. I tried to look upwards and see You
smiling down on me. But, no worries; I feel it.

Thank You for
allowing me this time, in my life, knowing that there are those more
worthy than I who would deserve to be here in the land of the living.
I'm so glad it doesn't go by money, or looks, or social status. Cuz, I
might not be here. But Your grace, and love for me is equal to everyone
else. For that, I thank You. It's the little things that I try to be so
grateful of..that I hope will prepare me for the big things that you
think I may be able to handle one day. LOL.

I kinda like this.
Even though I used to write You all the time, I haven't lately. Been
busy with life, feelings, and dealing with other people's stuff. I try
to avoid mine. But, I always remember that if I trust You, it will be
alright. All of it. From family, to relationships, to finances, to my
spirituality, my sexuality...I don't leave anything out. If I believe
You for one part, why can't I trust You for it all? I don't walk around
trying to hide what I feel from You. That's so crazy..when You know all
of me.

I'm going to end this letter, but You know we will be talking.

Sincerely, Your Child

Joyce