Unchained Thoughts on Life.......A Collaboration of 6 Minds

(Poetic Intrusion, Honey, Shazz, Javelle, ASW, Jakuper).....We each wrote a line

 

every day is a winding road with many paths and bridges
 so easy to get lost in it all
 But, I just take the time to think 
 about my journey and begin my thread
 and darn up the holes in my ripped tapestry
 which takes time and reflection
 But I was thinking about sex all too often, lately...
 that my vision is cloudy and filled with thoughts of desire
 shrouding my inner vision put colored glasses on my third eye
 because i'm sometimes afraid of what i see
 Some days, I see right in front of me...and then some days...
 I'm lost within the complexities of me
even as i flounder i attempt to exhale and breathe
i'm trying so hard to be good wanting so bad to please myself
But i realize being good..places me in divine order with my present company
I sit and pray..."Lawd, please don't let this woman tempt me."
 don't let my actions remove me, prevent me or exempt me from reaching my destiny
 this journey is hard i love her so much yet I know I have to resist her
 and...I have to resist trying to tempt a fate that may not be mine
 So I struggle within myself to hide what desires may be

 

I often wonder where i would have been today if i had not know u
would i wonder around amiss without you
 or...would I be forging a path to your door...
 I can't help but think I'd be much farther in life, a better person somehow
 i'm so ashamed sometimes when i reflect
 on my past, and how it sometime ruled me
 It made me aware that I was doing things I really didn't want to do, and how much I hurt my own self..So I promised myself...
 That no longer would I be led by emotions alone. I decided to look deep into my being and embrace the things that make me who I am
 shades of grey, eyes wide shut i swallowed the lie to easily but this had made me a much better person today
 or so i think.  i choke off the lies that bind me, hold me and keep me in place.  I want to love and live out loud, someone help me
Waiting for my angel to swoop down, and scoop me up..and lift me from this semblance of a happy life....
 But solace seems so far away...so hard to reach, no matter how hard I try it escapes me
 I choose to see the glass 1/2 full in all of this victory is near
 its on my fingertips.  the freedom I longed for.