reflections

reflections

of what a dent in my life
time has made
people have made

tracing my steps

peeping inside the shadows
flashbacks
of yesterdays
spent

in the sunshine
in the shade

memories
of love
of familiarity
of whimsical laughter
that meet me

then they fade

visits from casual acquaintances
cherished experiences
and those
I thought I knew

welcomes

jaunts
with long time friends

perhaps overstayed

flashbacks
of magic we made
of plans best laid

for a moment
I had it made in the shade

I will never forget
what you meant to me

then my life

one big competitive game
of hide and seek

emotional charades
Simon said
spin the bottle

comes to a screeching halt

like a bird is supposed to do
before
it hits a windshield

Rewind

I missed something...

No
I'm tired of missing something
I cannot call my own

Like that one moment
"...when I fucked it all up"

and I expected tomorrow
to come to my aid
to save me

and it never does

So

I'm taking a flight
Catching the next mental plane

Gonna hitch a ride
and travel to
a brand new dream

to where the wind

unmistakeably

is calling MY name

and it's really me

only me

ONLY ME
ONLY ME
ONLY ME

( I have to keep saying that
so I can believe it)

in the reflection...

that I see