A WRITING EXERCISE .........DISAPPOINTMENTS

Disappointments

A setback is what happens when you find yourself disillusioned by the very person who you trusted the most, and who you looked up to.....above all things that appear to be unexplainable. I have had many such, in my life.  Downfalls, some would label them.
But, disappointments have only made my character stronger, and sturdy.  I learned early on that I really don't need alot of approval.  I need less miscarriages of intentions.
I only need inspiration.
Inspiration" literally means "in spirit". When you are "in spirit" you can accomplish miracles.
We spend too much time, stopping, and waiting on others to validate our efforts.  As children we are taught pride, faith, and self-confidence.  As we grow older these traits are applicable on a daily basis, and in all our relationships with others.
One case in point is a friend I had.  She said she was my friend.   Spent countless hours talking to each other.  We learned so much about each other through sharing our work, our love of writing.  In her words, I saw through to the real person...the soul that was just as afraid of tomorrow as I was, but wore her anticipation like a badge of honor.
I get off on people who display as much courage as I'd like to have one day. LOL. 
But, something happened.  I still don't know what, to this day.  But, she changed right in mid-stream.  Nothing I said was right, or anything she could digest.  I was often left "scratching my head"  Now, we are at an impasse.
I tossed and turned many a night trying to find out what went wrong.  And I stopped short of assuming, because you know what assuming does.  I would just like to know why she just estranged herself from my company, after declaring herself as 'my soulmate', 'my light', and it was her purpose to be my best friend.  maybe she was only reflecting what she desired, and could not do.  Maybe she was afraid to accept such a responsibility. 
Maybe she wanted to steal "my joy'.  What a bummer.
That is very easy to do for people who are so enthusiastic about making friends, and seeing people happy.  Which I always am.  And, I don't have to be reminded that intentions are the premise to disappointment.  So what, She hurt me.  I lost another friend.  But, I prayed about it, and I rest upon the fact that "Jesus loves me."  And, if He is for me--He is 'more' than the whole world against me.  If there was something in my character that was an obstacle for her, she should have been woman enough to tell me.  Mistakes, mishaps, and misfortunes all befall everyone, self included.

Now, when I lose something, or someone, I know that it is only their time to exit my life.  Makes no sense holding on, or worrying about people who you will never be able to mend fences with, or explain your true intentions.  I accept the fact that she wanted something, and she was looking for something.  Whether I provided it, or not, I don't know.  But I treat everyone in my life the same.  I make sure it wasn't something I did, so I can sleep at night.  So to her, I will always love her with the love God put in my heart.  It was freely given by God, and It was certainly free from me

".....Try to make at least one person happy every day. … If you cannot do a kind deed, speak a kind word. If you cannot speak a kind word, think a kind thought. Count up, if you can, the treasure of happiness that you would dispense in a week, in a year, in a lifetime!
— Lawrence G. Lovasik (The Hidden Power of Kindness) "