Wednesday's Challenge....Between My Tears

Between her sobbing
I listened intently
to her cracking voice speak

Something had been so very wrong
I've known it for more than a few weeks
her Doctor's appointment
the one that she insisted
she didn't want me to attend
left me with questions

I didn't stop her
and I didn't want to further offend

It's nothing else they can do
I need to tell you
I'm dying, Baby....

Her voice sounded out
like thunder cracking
on a hot summer's night

The Doctor said it's only a matter of time
I know this will hurt you..
I want you to know.
only death could put our love asunder

But I cannot fight it
My energy is draining my strength

This is where I draw the line

Sobbing
uncontrollably
unable to catch my breath
fighting back my fears

I could only hold on to her
so tightly.... it hurt

I had always promised
to love my baby to death

But it has come way too soon

Never enough time
to say goodbye....

Only the sound
of sniffing
and deep sobs
filled our living room
as the silence
of bereavement loomed

I was lost

Between the tears
she asked for another minute
to explain

Something she wanted me to do

Something
I could never do

Why would you ask me
to assist
in killing you?

I wouldn't harm one hair
on your beautiful head

Now you're gonna leave me
I, too, would rather be dead

I...I...I can't do it Baby.

I'm sorry for your pain
I promise
to do all I can to alleviate it
we will be together again

I will be right here
with you

Crying with you
lying
with you
dying with you

I won't leave your side
I don't want to waste a moment

Together we will share
our pain
your tears
and my tears
your fears
and my tears

Memories

things we did
throughout the years

We will remember
We will laugh
We will hold hands
jointly clasped

As life releases hers of your grasp

I will walk with you
to the sunset...

and love you forevermore

.............................................

Watching her
because
in my heart I knew
she was slipping away
promise fulfilled
love delievered...

But ...
I don't want you to go

Neverthe less
I must return her
to Him who loved her
much more than I

I made excuses
not to look into her eyes
red with tears
weary with fears
all the love
all those beautiful years

Arguements
time we wasted
fighting
deciding to give it
just one more damn try

We got it right
But now
It's slipping away

"Baby, could you come here
I need to tell you

something right now"

I walked
slowly
to her bedside
tears streaming down
throat lumped...

Shaking my head

Nawwww
nawww
Nooooooooooooo!
Don't leave me

"I... got...
 to go...
Always
re...mem...ber
every....thing
we ...
pro...mised
Don't
stop
living
or...
loving
I love ....you.."

She smiled..
closed her eyes

and left me

 

 

jakuper(12/20/06)