Missing You

 

Hi  how have u been
missing you
is that right
yes
and why is that
neva knew how much til you were gone
silence
cant explain
I need you
Need is a very very strong word
I own it
well, I don't have very long
where are you?
using her lap top
oh, ok
thanks for thinking about me
Hope you have been well
didn't you see where I left you a message?
yes!  I smiled
cuz I knew u were thinking about me
I see.  I'm sorry for being so impossible..
I know
I know I lost you.  It was my fault
I honestly don't know what to say any more
nothing to say. I lost you
I can feel it...maybe we can be friends
whatever you do, don't feel sorry for me. I know you
I don't know to say
I don't feel sorry for you or me
I just don't know how handle it
when we get in situations like we did last week
I don't either, and I shouldn't have ran.
I became rebellious to the one person
who has been on my side the whole time
"hand under my chin looking @ the screen"
"eyes staring at the screen. unable to muster any right about myself..."
 feeling you....
"hand under my chin looking @ the screen making circles
with my mouse thinking about so many things
"batting my eyes, wondering what kind of things you're thinking about...."
not a flirt..just curious
I don't know
ok  Let It Be, then
was it supposed to go this far...were we suppose to be here
was it supposed to be this intense...why are we so involved
good questions
why did we venture into something that we both knew would only bring pain
why didn't we stop while we were ahead; why does it have to hurt so much
how far is this suppose to go...what do we hope to gain from all this
I'm sorry
how could you feel some one you never touched
why did we spend so much time together; yet so far apart
how come you speak in my ear so so many nights
but never actually whispered in my ear
do you know when you begin to need a person thats dangerous
and frightening as well
yeah
I think you just think u need me.  thats all
ok...so what you telling me
giving me questions I cant answer no more than u can
I'm telling you that if I were to die today you would go on
thats how you know you really don't need another person
Okay, so I don't need you....I want you
maybe I'm just cold and insensitive
or I'm just real and willing to face reality as harsh as it may be
do you want me in the sense that you want me to physically be with you
is that it what are you asking me..?
you saying I don't need you, yet you question my feelings....confusing...
no, no, no
I need to know what u mean when you say I want you
I'm not disagreeing with you...I'm conceding
I know I cant have you
alot of times I hide my feelings from you
I feel I'll only be setting myself up in a sense
so I keep them at bay
cause i guess I'm looking out for my heart in a big way
it has not totally worked any way
its working...it tells you to keep your distance
no, I tell it to keep distance
but did it listen
my heart tells me to run..evereyday..shut down..
but I'm stubborn  hardheaded  it wants what it wants
Well Baby, the time has come  I have to go

ok
she is back but it was nice chatting
same here
ok...be safe