Petals Strewn.....A FIAF Write #94

Broken hearts can mend....

I keep telling myself

This accumulation
of surrender
is my refusal to admit
your presence
in my life.

Our love was transcendental.

For me to deny those feelings now,
when I'm close as I will come to us reconciling,
would be like

a death sentence

of
these
petals

carelessly

strewn

Paradox of Mind........A Sacred Songspace Write

.......I know---my greatest weakness is not telling you I love you
when I want to tell you I love you every hour....
knowing tomorrow is not promised

The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.
(Carl Rogers)


in the middle of not looking,
in came you
asking where do we sit
this time around
Watching Nature hand down it's greatest asset
which keeps everything alive
From the heavens down through the sky
we are given
what keeps us living
The last time we had the perfect seat
it was under that tree...
and over that underground sea
Today....my heart don't know whether to stop
or beat as I wait for you
to take your seat


The of it all
that is still fresh in my recall
is still calling me
though my immediate past wants to stall me,
being it was very much exciting
and inviting to me
But, something deep deep inside of me
just knew it couldn't rain forever

So one day, in the sunshine's shade
my peace was made
with reality
Why did I have to learn
there’s no such thing as a stranger
and that danger
amid the shadows in the middle of not knowing what I really saw
only proved the foundation I was looking for
was not in the third drawer....
it resided right here in me

Most situations prove temporary in pursuit;
launched fully
and dutiful service rendered,
only scorched the essence of tomorrows promises
back ...to me
I proudly step to the plate
trusting God to justify my fate
If it isn't for me
then He will set me free
as I fulfill my promise
that which I cannot guarantee
that I will love you
unconditionally

into eternity








jakuper(6/26/12)

Mental.....FIAF #93

"All the motive needed is inside this masquerade party....."

Officers surrounded and cuffed her, reading her her rights.  One suggested she be taken to the mental hospital for evaluation, and held under watch, fearing she'd do something to herself.  Led away, looking back at Willie, and his wife laying on the floor....
she shrieked.....


BITCH!!!

I'm Done..........FIAF # 92

I'm out...I'm done doing the past.
because that's just what our relationship is now, "the past".
You didn't interrupt it
We met....we formed a bond,
and yes that bond was broken
I broke it first, then you tore it all apart
so we even.  

And Hell,

I WON'T APOLOGIZE FOR IT AGAIN, EITHER!!

After The Rain...a MIC Write #56

“May you have the hindsight to know where you've been,
The foresight to know where you are going,
And the insight to know when you have gone too far”



Would it matter if I told you
you're my bridge across troubled waters,
you're my sunshine after a long soaking rain,
or that your words caress me
where my deepest longing lies
....like a rug...your ambiance covers me
I can't let that go
...even though
you've never felt those things
I know
they are just lines
I can't sell to anyone anymore

For you... it's no longer a distant option
but for me it will always be a dream I held close
That state of regret personified
is what eats at me the most
I took the waiting
like flowers hungering for water
Famished...they withered
and just.....died

Sadness echoing across the miles
like the futile washing of cold waves
running hopelessly back to shore
Whispers spoken into ears
that just don't want to hear the rejection no more

I cannot forget you

I cannot express the surprise
of tides turning
when things didn't work out
A part of me will always remain
with you,
just as a part of you will always be
a tangible part my reality
In life
and in love,
hindsight is still 20/20 ....
even if I'm still blind

I could no more renounce your presence
than I can denounce the feelings I held at bay 
When I think of where you are
and where I am ..... I wish you wouldn't have went away
I ask myself
would I do it all again
and I answer ......

Yes!

 

jak(6/12)