Yearning.......a Roggy Moving Pic Challenge #19

I am tired, beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you;
of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it.
And I scald alone, here,
under the fire of the great moon.
~Amy Lowell~




Some say a full moon brings out the animal in us
maybe it does
and then...maybe it isn't to blame



I can safely accredit this state
to knowing
right now
that nothing done with sincerity, or purity
is a waste of time....
and realizing...that while I'll
never
get
the
chance
to tell you....again
while you're lying on my lap..
or in this bed
or watching movies buck naked
....while kissing every place on each other...
you know how we do it,
every
place







and clawing at each others moistened skin
playing
in your hair
and through your hairs
....while our wet fingers
touch...
and clutch
sending intimately fass,
crass
haw signals
that make me hot
and 'yearning',
'burning'
for you
feeling
so
fresh
and free
...
I can see
that the present circumstances
don't make me
....
they reveal me

It is high time for my soul
to feel me
....lying here....
and deal with my whys and whens
why...evenings like these.....spent without you,
not being able to do...us things....why not feeling the joy
that being us....brings us in
does not impede my belief
in my faith,
in my hope,
or in my love

They 'make' me love.
You make me horny
and restless
...more so...
even though you're
nowhere
around

My longing
is multiplied
....
remembering
when I 'could' look into your eyes
and watch
as our mutual desires collide,
as you waste no time
sliding between these thighs
sssiiiighhhh
and you find no surprises
because you make my early morning
and my midnight rises  lol
You are the reason
...I'm feeling this wet fire....
this unquenchable desire
this heated love
...
the choking kind
the uncomfortable kind
....the non-refundable kind....
and how it is making me
......
blind

damnnn!

(whispering)
to any copies of the real thing
that my present desolation brings
you will "never' hear me sing
like this

The 'how you ask around for me'
when I'm not there
and when catching my glance....
'you wink'..
and sink me
as I wink back
.....

Yeahhhhhh!!!!!!!!

(almost there, baby)


Moments like these
...to me....
are
priceless

and unable to be touched,






worth more
than a million bucks
to me
you set my passion free
like confetti
bursting in air
almost with the sanction
of an 'answered prayer'
My answer is like tears of joy
pouring from my pores
hands waving
clapping
lights flashing
libido crashing
in throbbing satisfaction
don't.
stop.
don't

don't....
stop....
don't stop
don't stop
.....
.....
DON'T STOP!!!

Yes,
it's the choking kind
but
the only kind of love
that works
on me
for me
You
work
me
over

(singing)
You have it
....you got it...
forever

this is not a one night stand

I'm not sure 'when'
(exhaling)
I started loving you
.......
like this



I just know

no one
can take your place









jakuper (6/30/11)

Random Sketches..........FIAF #41

memories ripped away
in strips  of expressive chaos
Me..a sleepless dreamer
painting Nature blues.

 I'll be your sky
 Whispering within sprinkles of rain.....
deep green Summer refrains

"What's beautiful.......the way I love you"

What they know,
all they know
is what I doodle
in scribes.......
  random sketches
faking happyness
 
hiding seasonal freedoms


 




jakuper (6/29/11)

Let Them Talk.....FIAF #42

realizing I'm sleepwalking

taking chances,
weaving possibilities.....making myself satisfied
for as long as it lasts
Days here are numbered anyway
.......why would anyone wanna stay
where they're not wanted?
Let them talk
I can't help but stare
and scheme

trying so hard in public to hide
echoes of laughter
 thinking

they talking about me









jakuper (6/26/11)

Love's Sabbatical.....A Roggy's #18 MP Challenge & SP Challenge

Your smile
manifesting-ly magnetizing
 as you rip into my attention
Your laughter....undeniably untamed
as I fight my dissent-ion
Your touch...tenderly unshakable
a pound of cure
....unbreakable....
for my ounce of prevention
Your eyes....so alive
 they twinkle in
rapaciousness
they blink
..in covetous petition..
in
entreated
hunger









I still feel the sting
of your blink
and your Mazarin wink
as
it
speaks
softly
to me
accosting me
as you look through me
deep into me
with indigo intentions
to pursue me
under those
unhidden sparkles of desire

You
......
you
...
you started this fire
and I can't forget none of it
I can't get away from it,
not even if you asked me to

Every time our auras connect
...
I defect to you
 a crouched ball
of beneficent blue flames
as hearing your name encompasses me
and thoughts romp righteously
in front of me
I stand the pain...I bid the rain ado
You're tempting me..
you're preempting me
and I don't know what to do

In forbidden strengths
you create un-forbidden lengths
causing unusual cherubic illumination
that demands
my unmitigated participation
in this unimpeachable yearn for you

You ask me
.....
how can I ache
for something I've not had
and crave so much for someone
 I've never held
within my unequivocal touch

I close my eyes so tight
until I answer those blinks
 with what my own heart  thinks
 I open my own eyes
and the flames give instruction to the game
that our combined auras procure

I intend to create a sabbatical of love
that
only
you
and
I
can
endure









jakuper (6/24/11)

Give Us This Day ....a Suga/jakuper Collab

"Give us this day our daily bread."
Matthew 6:11


What if I didn't have a reason
to clasp my hands
or humble my heart
and kneel down to pray

What if my last goodbye was really gone
and the one I needed never found me
or I had no real friendships
to depend upon

What if I had no new projects to start
no reason to live
no one to forgive
or no hope left in my heart

what would be the use in waking up today?





...and then the wind blew...
... A freedom beyond...
Promises spoken in the breeze
Soft  whispers from God
Words that whisk my soul
above troubles…
beyond strife…
past the detours of the day.

Those rocks cast at me
fell to the ground
paving my way.

I am “freed” by mercy
Graced in an in-taintable “love”
My lungs expand in the formation
of inner wings… pursing
my spirit to mount & soar.



Today, this day the Lord made,
that the wind blew
…and spoke
a freedom beyond…
let us rejoice

…

and be freed in it.





©An Xpressions/jakuper  SP2-Merge

99 Reasons To Leave........ Roggy Moving Pic Challenge #16

Asking myself
why I let you in

Answering........'I was just as lonely as you'


99 reasons to leave....
why...inquiring minds want to know

should I
shouldn't I
bad love.....good love
which is the best?
a hundred hearts would be too few
to carry all my love for you
my massive vision...now crushed
checking my soul mirror
and I just know
my absence will be only a sign
of things to come.
my mind caught up
in a maze
.....watching the past...
and love
disappearing
as trees strain the windows of our existence
Life is but a dream anyway
..feeling like ashes from a cigarette half-smoked
while listening to half-truths at half time
Ash tray filled....with ifs
ands
and butts
whispers of...
what about us
what happened to us
when is it gonna be
about us
I waited for ever....
but ever
never
came

It hurt that you couldn't see me
It hurt that you couldn't wait for me
It hurt that you couldn't remember me
and all we did to be free
I had so many reasons to leave
but you beat me to it
I cried the first time you left.
I waited for your return.
I waited
and waited
on the doorsteps of everything
I thought we could be
you came back
but you didn't really
come home


" I can call love by its name
When thine arm is wrapt about me;
But even love seems not the same,
When I sit alone, without thee.
Dost thou love me, my Beloved? "
~Elizabeth Barrett Browning~

Alone here
where I usually am
recessing in my thoughts
waging a vigil for you
little time logged sleeping,
or doing anything else...but thinking about you.
got 99 reasons to leave
and only one to make me stay

praying for you
In quiet confidence...I waited.
and waited...
and waited
and
waited

What went wrong..this time?
Why couldn't you for once
believe in only me..
only me
only
me


called you...
no answer..
no last goodbye

I can't take this anymore


better for both of us
if this time

I

close that door









jakuper (6/14/11)

Happy Weekend Every body!!!

Just wanted to wish all of you...and then..each of you a happy safe, and peaceful weekend.  Do something you love...do something that scares you...do something totally unselfish...and most of all...remember and say thanks from where your blessings come from.....

This Weekend....

Staying On Track

 

In a world where we have routines for nearly everything—our route to work, our physical fitness regimen, and our weekday schedule—it’s amazing how many people forget to create a routine for meeting their spiritual needs. We run around in an attempt to be at our many appointments on time and meet our many obligations.

In our efforts to be as productive as possible, however, our spiritual needs tend to take a backseat. After all, taking care of our spiritual needs doesn’t directly pay the bills or tone our abdominal muscles. We may even wonder who has time to meditate or write in their journal when there are more pressing matters to see to.

The truth is that nurturing ourselves spiritually is what gives us the energy and grounding that we need to make sure that our lives stay on track.

How you choose to nurture yourself spiritually is a personal choice. For some people, meditating once a day may be what they need to stay centered.

While spending 10-20 minutes with your eyes closed and your brain devoid of thought may seem like a lot of time doing nothing, this state of nothingness actually allows you to stay calm and focused so you can be as productive as possible. Writing in your journal everyday lets you stay in touch with yourself so that you are always tuned in to your feelings.

Repeating affirmations for success, happiness, and well-being on a regular basis can help you live with optimism and enthusiasm and create what you want in life.

Having a routine for nurturing your spirit that you do each day lets you feed energy to your soul and can serve you well if your life suddenly takes an unexpected turn into a difficult period. This kind of routine grounds your spirit in your body so that you stay anchored in yourself as you move through each day.

Nurturing yourself spiritually allows you to not only stay on track in your life, but it allows for your life to stay on track with what your spirit wants.

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Everyone...please have a wonderful weekend..and to stay on track, take a moment to just nurture your spirit...