EVE'S TEMPTATION

If I take your apple,
what will happen to me
I'm supposed to be an example
to everyone coming after me
down through history

Everything I decide to do
will be recorded...
and my blame will fall back to you
But I should know better what is true

If I'm going to gain so much from one bite
Why is this feeling not so right?
Why do I have a feeling
I'm not going to be able to sleep at night?

Something tells me deep down inside
that beneath your promises...
even you have something to hide

A woman's intuition is to think about it twice
and what you're telling me doesn't sound so nice

Promises, promises that you cannot keep
I should know better than to trust you...

I saw you lying to me, in my sleep

My Father came to me
once I had taken your bait
I tried to hide from Him
He told me to wait

My mistake sent me to Him
Each time I went to Him
I realized what I meant to Him

I felt so ashamed
Seems I played a deadly game

I was naked, happy, and free
Now, I'll never be the same
He had all the answers to my eternity

From then on, I hid my body so noone could see

From that day forward
I was hip to your cunning voice
Right and wrong
now is a choice
Down through time men and women knew...

Not to trust in a devil like you




jakuper-3/28/07

IN ANXIOUS STATE....

The sounds she makes for me in bed
still fill my head
Moaning so deep
and then....we sleep

Lying beside her with her scent
like peppermint
Licking my lips
wasting no drips

In her is where my desire lies
juicy, thick thighs
opening wide....
going inside

If I drown, I really don't care
I belong there
She is my sin
going back in

It's time for the tables to turn
my turn...I earn
I get to see
her....doing me

It's anything she wants to do
love, made for two
I gladly wait
in anxious state




jakuper(3/28/07)

Daily Motivation: Be Free

B e f r e e

Be free, and savor every little grain of existence that dances before your eyes. Beauty and joy are not what someone says they are. You know them because of the way they fulfill you. Your own doubt is your opponent's greatest strength. Carry yourself beyond it and see the sparkling universe which whirls with possibility around you. Free yourself from the burden of your own anxiety. Whatever is, is already. Whatever you will be, is yours to create right now. Live each moment with all you have, not just with whatever has survived the worry. This is the best day that has ever been, though some may attempt to convince you otherwise. Free yourself from their addictions of limitation. Life is yours to live. Though it is gritty, it is real. Though sadness comes, it is possible only because you care so much. Let go and live the joyful experience that is yours.

Copyright Ralph S. Marston, Jr. Used by permission. From The Daily Motivator® at www.dailymotivator.com

Dear GOD

Dear God

I come to you--the only Father I have known. I feel
right calling you DAD. Yeah, it's me, coming to You once more..in the
form of writing. I stop to thank You for my life, for the breaths that
I take for granted, for the world around me that I live in each day,
and take no thought of.

Something always happens to bring me
back to this place. This place of gratitude, and warmth. people talk
about You sometimes like you are nowhere around, like You don't see
what's going on, in the world. But, I see You. I see You in the
flowers, in the cool breeze that envelops me late at night. I feel Your
love in my face as I walk down the street. You know I be walking, and
praying, all the time. Only this morning, I'm sitting here, at my pc,
doing this as an exercise. I'm very much in the present, as I always
try to be with you.

I never need a reason to come to You. I just
do. I got friends who need You, my family that needs You, and I have
things I've asked for that I still believe will come.

The door
is half way opened, and I feel a cool breeze blowing past me. That must
be You. I plan to take a walk later on, like I always do...to feel your
ambiance all around me, minus the walls, the people here, and minus
distractions so I can tell You all the things I might forget, in this
letter....



Then, God, in the midst of what seems like
chaos, You send me a blessing. Something to remind me that You love me,
and others do too. Got me smiling. I tried to look upwards and see You
smiling down on me. But, no worries; I feel it.

Thank You for
allowing me this time, in my life, knowing that there are those more
worthy than I who would deserve to be here in the land of the living.
I'm so glad it doesn't go by money, or looks, or social status. Cuz, I
might not be here. But Your grace, and love for me is equal to everyone
else. For that, I thank You. It's the little things that I try to be so
grateful of..that I hope will prepare me for the big things that you
think I may be able to handle one day. LOL.

I kinda like this.
Even though I used to write You all the time, I haven't lately. Been
busy with life, feelings, and dealing with other people's stuff. I try
to avoid mine. But, I always remember that if I trust You, it will be
alright. All of it. From family, to relationships, to finances, to my
spirituality, my sexuality...I don't leave anything out. If I believe
You for one part, why can't I trust You for it all? I don't walk around
trying to hide what I feel from You. That's so crazy..when You know all
of me.

I'm going to end this letter, but You know we will be talking.

Sincerely, Your Child

Joyce

Pulling My Chain.........Part 2

The weekend rolled
around too fast. The week was filled with deadlines, and work, work,
work. I had little time to think of the weekend past, and of the newest
interest in my life. I meet people all the time, but they never get
past my initial "looking over" or what I feel from the first
conversation. I think I have come to like being single. No, I'm not.
Who am I kidding? I don't like sleeping alone, or going places with
couples alone. I like being the other half of things happening, year in
and year out. The only time I love being single is when I see couples
not getting along, or breaking up over something silly.

My
regular partner called this morning, and said she wouldn't be able to
play tonight. She has a date. Ughhh. But, I know there will always be
stragglers hanging around waiting to get a game in. Who knows--
Kelly might be playing with me tonight. (Smiling to myself)


I
get there, and the house is full. The games have started. People are in
the living room, watching some dvd, with Samuel Jackson. I speak as I
make my way through the crowd. In the kitchen, I see roasting pans of
chicken, ribs, and steaks. People sitting around the table, eating,
drinking, and talking trash. Laughter all around me. I walk to the door
where they're playing, stick my head in, and speak. Everyone greets me.
I take a quick glance around the room, to see if I see her. I'm looking
for her, but I don't want it to look that obvious. I see her. Standing
in the corner, talking to someone I don't know. Hhmmmm. Maybe she
brought a partner. maybe she found someone more interesting. Oh well. I
walk back into the kitchen, and start a conversation with one of my
buddies. I try to put that vision of Kelly out of my mind. I open the
fridge, and grab a beer, pop the top, and take a good long sip.
AAAhhhhh. Yes, this is what I've been waiting all day for.

I had
taken the bottle down from my mouth, and I looked up, and Kelly was
looking me right in my face. I was stunned. For an uninterrupted
moment, we shared a glance.....a connective energy. I won't try to
explain it. I couldn't anyway.

"Hello, Stranger. How was your week?"

It was busy. And yours?

"Full
of thoughts of you. What did you slip in my drink last weekend?
Something about you, I couldn't shake. Do you mind enlightening me... "

LOL.
What do you mean? I wouldn't spike your drink. Not to get your
attention. If I wanted your attention, I would do something like
slipping you a note, with my number, or showing you special attention
in a crowd. I might wink, or hug you a lil tighter. Or, I would sit
over in a corner, staring at you all night. Nahhh. I wouldn't spike
your drink, dear.

"Well, it seems like we got a long wait to play. That is if you still wanna play with me."

I
laughed out loud. ' Of course I wanna play with you' She was flirting.
With me. I flirted back. So, am I wrong about that person she was
talking to...

" You think you could trust me enough to walk out
to the car with me; I have to find some real music for this place. And,
you can tell me what kind of music you like, what kind of person you're
looking for, and any old thing you want to share. What you say? You
trust me to keep my hands to myself?"

Nooooo. But, I can handle
myself. You know I know Kung Fu, and Judo, and Ninja. If you try
something, I will have to hurt you. So think. Think safety first. LOL.

She laughed. She has the prettiest teeth. Her brown eyes glow when she laughs. So warm.

"
I'm at your mercy. I won't try anything that could get me hurt. I don't
like pain. let's go." I followed closely behind her, as she and I
walked through the crowded rooms, past everyone. I noticed several eyes
following us to the door. Her aroma filled my nose. My level of
excitement was rising by the second.

She walked around to my
side of the car, unlocked the door, and I got in to sit down. I
unlocked her side. She got in, and turned on the ignition, and music
enveloped the car. MAZE. Happy Feelings. Now that's a plus. I just love
Maze. Something is telling me this person is going to be more than just
a Spades partner. I watched her, attentively. She was a beautiful brown
skin angel, to me. From the first moment I saw her...she moved me. I
know she knows I'm watching her. Can she feel me "feeling her"?

"I
think these are enough for how long I'm going to be here. What you
think? What are you thinking right now? You look like you're lost in
thought over there. Something I can help you with?"

Just thinking. I like your music. That's one of my favorite songs. Says alot about you.

"What does it say to you?"

That, ummm, you're compassionate, soulful, and you love good music.

"Is that right?"

Yeah.

The
air got silent, and thick...all at the same time. It's like emotions
clouded up the small space between us, enveloping us in it's magic. It
was exciting, and yet uneasy.....

She leaned over and kissed me.

That
sent firecrackers, shotguns, and bubbles off in my head. Something in
me popped. That kiss started at my lips, went all over my head, rang
out through my ears, vibrated down to my nipples, and took a nose dive
deep, deep into my feminine essence. Damn. Her lips were so soft, and
her cottony smooth tongue attacked every inhibition I had. Had I been
standing, I would have fell. Right on the floor.

Notwithstanding, I think I fell, anyway.........

Finish The Thoughts........A-Z

A thought for today is.......
Because I.......
Clearly, there are.....
Different things I know......
Everything feels.......
Feeling like I....
Generosity is when you....
Happiness is....
Into every life ........
Just because you .......
Kindness is.....
I thought about...  ....
Maybe I could.....
Never take........
Optimism is........
People do some....
Questions I never ask are....
Reasons for arguments are......
Simple is...
Tenderness is...
Understanding more about............as time goes by
Very excited about..........
Wisdom is.....
Xtra careful is being........
Yearning is....
Zealous is....

SUNDAYS WITH JOYCE

WORD FOR TODAY

Charitable Attitude
1. Be clothed with love Colossians 3:14 And above all these things, put on charity, which is the bond of perfectness
2. Disregard people's faults Proverbs 17:9 He that covereth a transgression seeketh love; but he that repeateth a matter seperateth very friends
3. Do everything with love 1 Corinthians 16:14 Let all your things be done with charity.
4. Forgive those who sin against you Matthew 6:14 For if you forgive men their trespasses, your Heavenly father will also forgive you
5. Stop judging others Matthew 7:1 Judge not, that ye be not judged.
6. Make allowances for people's faults Colossians 3:13
Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a
quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye








Remembering Selflessness


Opportunities
to share your resources with those less fortunate will likely present
themselves to you today, allowing you to satisfy any charitable
impulses that come over you. Yet even as you sacrifice your time,
energy, or money to improve the lot of others, you may nonetheless feel
dissatisfied with your contribution. You can be certain that the
assistance you give others is both sufficient and well-received today
by simply performing each charitable act in a selfless state of mind.
Since your focus is then fixed on the objects of your compassion, you
will likely enjoy more intense feelings of interconnectivity with those
on the receiving end of your generous gifts.

The charitable acts
we perform often bring us a deeper sense of satisfaction when we adopt
a mind-set of selflessness while carrying them out. This is because
when we are focused on the welfare of others, we build a karmic account
or reputation of generosity for ourselves and naturally devote more of
our energy and dedication to the philanthropic tasks at hand. We are
more apt to make sacrifices that benefit the objects of our concern as
we have no motive that overshadows our simple desire to be of help to
those in need. Whether we are regarded as kind or compassionate is less
important to us than actually being able to perform kind and
compassionate acts. The selflessness with which you give others aid and
support today will ensure that you are able to do the most good with
the resources available to you.

What do you think?

I LOVE YOU!

How did you feel so real
when you only appeared to echo
what something deep within me was already feeling?

How was I allowed to touch your body
from merely a thought?
 
Waking up, you weren't here with me,
my legs weren't wrapped around yours.
Yet, I could feel your silky body
pressed against mine,
with my back to you...

So this is what it feels like....

I turned to you
placing my arms around your waist
and felt the warmness
of your stomach
as my fingers glided across your skin,
and your navel.

My feet massaging yours,
Me running my legs up and down against yours.
I placed a kiss on your neck,
as I held your hair back
with my right hand...

I could hear you moaning..... softly

Your body moved in closer to mine.
My hands began to gently squeeze your left breast...
Almost immediately,
your nipple hardened,
 I twisted it between my thumb
and index finger,
with just enough force to solicit
a moan from you.
Lifting my head, closer to your ear,
saying I want you. .....

Je t'aime, baby!

 

~jakuper~3/23/07

Wings of Love.....Broken

Once upon a fallacy I soared on wings of love.

Today, I wonder--
what was I ever thinking of?

With willful wings mangled
and burning with lust
I soared to Love's acidic heights
looking for the love
I once found
in us

Seeking diligently
for it's empyrean comforts
The only thing that interrupted me
from reaching that peak
was another jealous fights
and devotion
that proved very weak

My unchaste ears naively privy
to sordid stories
of her scheming deceits
My heart burned
within me
and as lies wrangled my course
the disgust burned in me

I said nothing
I did nothing
I expected nothing

I guess I hoped that prayers
would hold us together always
when it only took devotion

No matter how many times we snatched love back
from Hades strong hold
it was very evident
to see

That that love was not meant for me..



jakuper(3/22/07)

It's Springtime!

Spring comes when the earth,

coaxed by lengthening days and warmer temperatures,

begins to awaken from her winter slumber.


She stretches open

to receive the rain that gives drink

to flower buds and seedlings.

She takes a deep breath,

and on her exhale the leaves on trees unfurl like tiny flags

heralding her revival as baby animals tumble forth,

trumpeting the good news to all who will listen.


Rebirth and repopulation

fill the void of winter with flurry and fury

as what appeared to be gone forever comes into being once again.


Even though it happens this way every year,

we stand in awe,

our insides trembling sweetly

like the legs of a new foal as we too are reborn.


This is when we fall in love, again,

speak without thinking,

say yes to things we would normally refuse.

It becomes more difficult to say no

when the whole world around us

appears to be an astounding affirmation of the resilience,

richness, and plain, perfect beauty of life.


We may find ourselves feeling several years younger

and 10 pounds lighter without changing a thing.

We may feel the urge to cleanse our bodies

with a new pattern of eating,

clearing our kitchens of cold-weather comfort foods

and filling them instead with lighter fare

and fresh fruits and vegetables.


We may clear our closets of old clothes

or cut our hair to express a new facet of who we are,

and who we might become.


Springtime inspires us to believe that,

along with the earth, we too might change,

release the past,

and give birth to new ideas,

new relationships,

and new perspectives.



In honor of spring,

we could make a list of the many possibilities

we envision for the future

bury it in the earth,

surrendering the fertile seeds

of our imaginations

to the nurturing soil.


In tune with the season,

we can then watch in wonder

as the last of the snow

dissolves into the rich brown earth,

and stark winter gives way...
.
to green possibilities.



WHAT DOES SPRING MAKE YOU THINK OF?

Friend Of Mine

a GIFT that I truly treasure
real love you give to me
beyond monetary measure
finding one so TRUE and free
FRIENDSHIP is one of the greatest things
I could GIVE to you and me

Technology has closed the distance
it takes to make a friend today
Your spirit was all that was needed anyway
When you find a REAL one
then you know for yourself what it takes
Everyone deserves to feel this way

A true friend releases the hostilities of indifference
and forges a clear path to emotional growth....TOGETHER

They SUPPORT each other's dreams
and UNDERSTAND that opinions can be compromised

"The freshness of each INDIVIDUAL friendship
brings something GOOD out in me"

Some I tried and they failed to be true
Some who would give their last
just for you
Some HELP me to define
things I already knew down through time
I'm glad for every friend of mine

I'm Waiting On You

As you stood, watching raindrops slowly stain the windows of our existence, Can you see that it was really my tears?
I cried the day you left. I waited for your return.
I waited, myself..on the doorsteps of everything we could be.

I waited.

Hell...I still wait.

The raindrops have ceased now. Alas, my tears have dried. There is that rainbow I've been hoping for. it's gonna be a bright, bright, sunshiny day.
My sunshine today is knowing you exist. Knowing you are cast there..in your beautiful world. Knowing that someone loves you, someone needs you. You exist for people whose lives you affect.

Who is it that could disrupt such a blessing in life....

I sit here...on the steps of time. Waiting. Waiting on you, baby. I told you once before that promises are made to be kept. I never lied to you.

Check the last place I was seen. They will tell you that I was there, waiting on you. Alone in the recesses of my thoughts, I waged a vigil....very little time logged sleeping, or doing anything else...but thinking about you

Do you believe in what your heart says to you?

Have I proved that I don't care?

Did you even think of me?

SUNDAYS WITH JOYCE

WORD FOR TODAY


OPTIMISM

1. Be joyful always 1 Thessalonians 5:16
Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks: for
this is the will of God in Jesus Christ concerning you
2. Be strong and take heart Psalms 31:24 Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord
3. No fear of bad news Psalms 112:7,8
He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in
the Lord. His heart is established, he shall not be afraid, until he
sees his desire upon his enemies.
4. Lift up eyes to the hills Psalms 121:1 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
5. Cheerful heart is good medicine Proverbs 17:22 A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones
6. There is a future Psalms 37:37 Mark the perfect man, and behold the upright: for the end of that man is peace.





Commandeering Your Will




You may feel that you are being influenced by unconscious forces buried
deep within your soul today. Patience can elude you, and you will
likely find yourself acting compulsively without knowing why. Regaining
your ability to control your thoughts and behaviors, however, may be as
simple as choosing between logic and obsession. If you recognize that
your emotions or long-standing patterns are having an effect on you
today, try taking a moment to reaffirm your independence through
introspection. Looking back on those times when you felt in control can
help you shift your perspective so that you can once again see the
world in a rational way.

There is no force in the universe
capable of influencing us to do what we do not want to do when we have
chosen to take conscious control of our whims and impulses. Even though
we are required to face many circumstances that have the potential to
manipulate our thoughts and feelings, each of us possesses the strength
to dispel these influences through mindful resistance. We may feel
strongly compelled by our emotions to behave in a certain fashion, yet
we also recognize in our logical minds that there is no reason we must
obey such impulses. Thus we are free to choose whether we wish to obey
our whims or move in an entirely different direction in the name of our
own continued well-being. The compulsions you feel today will hold no
sway over your decisions when you choose to commandeer your will.

What do you think?

DO UNTO OTHERS .........

.

"DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU"

We
all go through something. This is true. What works for me, may not work
for you. What's acceptable for you...I may not can totally grasp. To
each of us is given a level of understanding, grace, hope, and
clarity....

This week, I was tested to maybe the highest degree
that I will be tested online. I had the chance to "prove" everything
that I write about, talk about, and believe in, when a situation came
up concerning forgiveness, misrepresentation, and lying.

A
dear friend to me revealed that they were not who they said they were. 
And went on to prove what they were saying is true. I did take the time
to listen to them, and let her explain.  Although I still don't see why
the deception was necessary, I had to call on everything I believe in.

Forgiveness
first, because she did lie.  I was made to think she was one person, and
she was someone else.  Forgiveness because this was an ongoing thing,
and not just a first impression type thing.  We had a relationship as
friends. And the other day, I went through this whole forgiveness thing
with a friend.  She literally preached me a sermon, and didn't know it.
I kept saying, "why is she telling me all this?"  And it was something
in me that quickened, and I stopped to actually feed on her words.  And
today, I know it was a message for me about something that was going to
happen.

Understanding. I always want to be to others what I
want them to be to me.  If I want forgiveness, or understanding, I
should be able to give it. If I want something from God, I have to show
myself able to give mercy to others.  He said that whatever I do to the
'least' of these, I do it unto Him.  So, I gave up what I would like
from a friend of mine...

And besides, she did have the courage to tell me the whole truth.  Do we exercise the same with our friends?  Do they know 'everything' about us?

Will I forget it? I would hope that in
time, I will. Jesus doesn't hold my sins against me.  So, go figure. 
And, even with my humanness, I still wanna be like Him one day.  I still
love her as a friend, and I understand why she had to do things they
way she did.  It's up to her and her God as to chastisement.  I'd hate
for God to be punishing me for something someone else did.  LOL

I
extend the best of me to my friends. This means that any one of my
friends may have been in that place.  Whether it be a switched identity,
blatant untruths, and all kinds of deceptions, I have to be to you what
I want you to be to me...

"That Miracle"

Why is the world
always changing so...
Why do I find myself
always trying
to fit the shape of my dreams
Not knowing
whether I'm coming ...
or going
Facing the what if...
and not knowing what to make of it
Not knowing..
IF..
I wanna do anything about it,
anyway
What if I had done things differently?
Would the stars
the heavens
and clouds re-align just for me
Will the sun above me
the rocks, sticks, and stones
washing the surface below
Will they finally make a compromise
just for me...?
My head lays here
and my heart prays right here
in the locks of my spirit
channeling everything good my way
Don't forget me, Lord..

I'm looking for "that" miracle today

The One Who Carries You....

God said
The dividing line
between happiness and sadness
is a very fine line.
Happiness and sadness are right next to each other,
just the way Godwriting and ordinary writing
are right next to each other.
Side by side. There is hardly any distance at all.
In both cases, you have awareness,
and you lean your awareness to the left,
or you lean your awareness to the right.
Each is a direction you take.

Have an intent to go in the direction you favor.
You can stand closer to happiness.
You can sit with it, carry it with you like a purse.
I well understand that it seems
that events in life affront you or befriend you.
It seems to you that your sense of well-being
is dependent upon the nature of the events.
When your awareness goes by outer events,
then you are like a bouncing ball
and give away all jurisdiction over yourself.
Or you see yourself as an orange that some unnamed juggler juggles.
Or you see yourself like a tennis ball,
batted from one end of the court to the other,
hardly able to keep up with what is happening.

When I gave you free will,
I took this changeability into consideration.
Without free will, you would automatically be happy
regardless of the exigencies of life.
Exigencies of life will be present, for in the relative world,
perceived life changes moment by moment.
It will not even stay the same for two seconds,
and it is those changes that you call the exigencies of life.

You may even be a prima donna whose face changes
dramatically depending upon the accolades poured on her or withheld.
You are not meant to be a prima donna nor a chameleon.
You are a Human Being, designed and made by God.
You don't have to change the expression on your face
according to the scenery and the weather.
You can know that your destiny is to stand tall,
regardless of countryside and the storms that come and go.
You can be happy without being elated,
and you can be sad without being aggrieved.
Equanimity is available to you. It is a choice you have.

The One Who carries you carries you high
regardless of what seems to be happening in the world.
The One Who carries you never lets go of you.
If you fell from the highest mountain, you would be caught.
If you fell into an abyss, you would be lifted.
Apart from your body and your worldly life,
you cannot fall. You cannot even skin your knee.
Your body carries My genes, but I carry you.

.What's Your Addiction?

Hello, my name is Joyce, and I'm addicted to you! I wake up in the
morning, and the first thing I do is say a silent prayer for you.
Hoping to see you. Hoping your life is okay with you. I go about my day
as if I need that stimulation from you.


Did you see me? Did
you think about me? What can I do today to enrich my life a little bit
more than I did yesterday. And, I'm totally serious, too. Because I
know how it is when you've lived all your life and you want it to
matter to someone. It's true that we have people in our lives on a
regular basis...but do they really notice what you do? Will they know
how many lives you touch on a daily basis..whether positively, or
negatively?

But me--hey, I see you. Matter of fact, I look for
you. I look to see what you're doing. I want to know that you're
thriving, and being productive. and I make sure not to overdo it,
because you know what it looks like to some who think you give them, or
someone else too much attention.... They call you a follower. Needy.
and God forbid, weak. it is no more weak to accept stimulus from
another person as it is to emulate them. When you're doing good, it
makes me want to do good. makes me have hope in my own life that I can
do all things, through God's help. If you think what you do doesn't
impact me, you're wrong. Everything I come in contact with, be it
written, spoken, or just there...moves me in some kind of way. It
pushes my thoughts into action.

What am I so addicted to...........

INTERACTION

I WAS JUST THINKING...FINISH THE THOUGHT

Sunday's Thoughts

I have....

Im thinking......

Im trying.......

I know that.....

Today...

Soon...

My tune for today is.....

Mood.....

My 'Quote for the day'.....

SUNDAYS WITH JOYCE

WORD FOR TODAY

Prayer
1. Ask and it will be given Matthew 7:7,8
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek and ye shall find; knock and it
shall be opened to you: For everyone that asketh receiveth; and he that
seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened
2. Believe and you will receive Matthew 21:22....And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.
3. Call on the Lord Psalms 145:18,19
The Lord is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call
upon him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of them that fear him; he
also will hear their cry, and will save them.
4. Lift up hands in prayer 1 Timothy 2:8 I will therefore that men pray everywhere, lifting up holy hands, without wrath and doubting.
5. Refuse to confess, misery results Psalms 32:3 When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long

".......However
you pray, wherever you pray, and when you pray, talk to Him as if
you're talking to your best friend. Whatever you need He has it.

You can tell Him everything, and He understands, and is waiting on you...."

Almighty God, , and Undeserved Friend, thank you!


Thank
you for this breath I take and for the heartbeat that sustains my life.
Make me aware as I travel, talk, rest, and work that you are there and
are worthy of my intentional best. You surprise me with new wonders and
new things daily. Thank you for not making life boring or predictable
so I might thirst after you, you who are forever fresh, new, exciting,
and marvelous.



Search
me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See
if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way
everlasting. Mold my heart into a heart of love, and hope. O God, I
know you are the one who "searches hearts and minds" yet because of the
grace you demonstrated in Jesus, I am confident that you love me. My
heart is sorry for the sin I have committed, but I am really trying to
serve you in honor and purity. Please fill me with your Spirit to
enable me to become more like Christ.



There
have been times when I was so broken I could not go on. I know the
strength to continue came from your rich grace and mercy. Please use me
this week to offer your comfort and love to others so they may feel
your warm embrace and come to yearn more for the day we see you face to
face in heaven.


Give
me the conviction I need to share my hope in Jesus, but in a way that
reflects your grace. These blessings I ask in your name...AMEN.

(Nimah's Challenge) It's Crazy Love

* For Keeta



Opening old wounds
every time
he speaks

Your eyes
crying
crimson tears
that he
cannot see

Domestic damage done

Every day
of the week

but it still feels
just like the last one

Why stop now?

The last few days
taking your kindness
for weakness

Asking you
for shyt you don't normally do
but because
you want him back

'you let him make a fool of you'

Why stop now?

You take the shyt
he dishes out to you

Let him
braid
his own damn hair

So what
if he shows off
acting like he doesn't care

If he can't
help you out
he has no business there

How much more blood do you owe him
Tell him to get the Hell outta there

Why stop now?

You feeding him
fucking him
washing his dirty clothes

When he gets off work
where he is til time to sleep
no one ever knows

Back to baby's mama
And still gets home
to see where your money goes


Why stop now?

It's crazy love
anyway

You say he doing silly shyt
he knows
will make you mad
But when he on top of you
You're the best loving
he ever had

Why stop now?

When a woman's really fed up
and knows
she deserves better
she'll do something
different

She will STOP!

The Wisdom Of Surrender

March 8, 2007
The Wisdom Of Surrender
Relying On Others


Most of us pride ourselves on our self-sufficiency. We
like to be responsible for taking care of ourselves and pulling our own
weight in the world. This is why it can be so challenging when we find
ourselves in a situation in which we have to rely on someone else. This
can happen as the result of an illness or an injury, or even in the
case of a positive change, such as the arrival of a newborn. At
times like these, it is essential that we let go of our feeling that we
should be able to do it all by ourselves and accept the help of others.


The first step is accepting the situation fully as
it is. Too often we make things worse either by trying to do more than
we should or by lapsing into feelings of uselessness. In both cases we
run the risk of actually prolonging our dependency. In addition, we
miss a valuable opportunity to practice acceptance and humility. The ego resists what is, so when we move into acceptance we move into the deeper realm of the soul.
In needing others and allowing them to help us, we experience the full
realization that we are not on our own in the world. While this may
bring up feelings of vulnerability, a deep feeling of gratitude may
also emerge as we open to the experience of being helped. This
realization can enable us to be wiser in our service of others when we
are called upon to help.

It takes wisdom and
strength to surrender to our own helplessness and to accept that we,
just like every other human being, have limitations. The gifts
of surrender are numerous. We discover humility, gratitude, and a
deepening understanding of the human experience that enables us to be
that much more compassionate and surrendered in the world.

SUNDAYS WITH JOYCE

WORD FOR TODAY

JOY

1. The humble will be filled with fresh joy Isiah 29:19 The meek shall also increase their joy in the Lord, and the poor among men shall rejoice in the Holy One of Israel.

2. Joy at answered prayer John 16:24 Hitherto have ye asked nothing in my name: ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may be full.

3. Serve God with joy Psalms 100:2 Serve the Lord with gladness: come before His presence with singing

4. God anoints with oil of joy Psalms 45:7 Thou
lovest righteousness, and hatest wickedness: therefore God, they God
hath anointed thee with the oil of gladness above thy fellows

5. Trials, count it all joy James 1:2 My brethern , count it all joy when you fall into diver's temptations;

God said:

Joy begets joy.

Let joy be the theme of your life.

Let it be your byline,

your password, your entry into Heaven.

Let Us not be snobbish about joy.

Joy does not have to be of the Highest.

There is joy also in entertainment.

Just bear in mind that joy

is not mere entertainment.

Joy is an entry, not an exit.

Joy does not have to jump up and down.

Joy can be like the quiet reading of a bedtime story.

It does not have to be a performance.

There is great joy with Me,

beloveds, when you are in the mood for God.

Of course, sometimes you think I interfere with your life,

get in the way, cause obstructions.

Truly, beloveds,

there is no need for Me to do that.

I clear your path.

You throw your own stumbling-blocks,

will you concede this?

You have some short-sightedness

or long-sightedness

that obstructs your view.

Nevertheless, keep going, beloveds.

When it comes to life,

you cannot predict accurately.

You just have to skip along,

on one foot and then the other,

and see what comes.

But joy is not meant to be dependent

on what occurs in life.

And that's where I come in.


Your awareness of your closeness to Me gives you great joy.

Life
is meant to be lived joyously. We are the ones who put so much strain
on our lives. We try to do God's work for Him. He has blessings for us,
that we will never have room to receive...simply because we are not
emotionally, or spiritually where he can reach us.....


Let
us find new ways to see God in our everyday lives. Let's find something
to show for all the blessings He has given us. it's another week.
Another month. Another season. Something to be joyful about. Don't you
think...lol

How Much Are You Worth?

Okay so here's the deal. Look it over and see how many of these things you have done, BUT
you have to add up the money amount along the way, then post the amount
that you are in the Comments Section - such as "$15" or "I am worth
$78" or something like that. 

 

No matter what the number we have all done something that's Priceless

 



Smoked pot-- $10 

Got drunk, passed and don't remember the night before-- $20 Went 

skinny dipping-- $5 Had sex in a pool-- $20 

Kissed someone of the same sex-- $10 

Had sex with someone of the same sex $20 

Cheated on your g/f or b/f -- $10 

Cheated on your g/f or b/f with their relative or close friend--$20 

done oral-- $5 

got oral-- $5 

done / got oral in a car while it was moving --$25 

prank called the cops-- $5 

Stole something--$10 

Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars--$20 

Had sex with someone 10 years older-- $20 

Had sex with someone under 21 nd you are over 27--$25 

Cried yourself to sleep-- $5 

Cried during sex--$20 

Been in love-- $25 

Been in love with two ppl or more at the same time --$50 

Said you love someone but didn't mean it-- $25 

Went streaking-- $5 

Went streaking in broad daylight --$15 

Been arrested-- $5 

Spent time in jail --$15 

Peed in the pool-- $0.50 

Played spin the bottle-- $5 

Done something you regret-- $20 

Had a crush on your best friend--$5 

Had sex with your best friend --$20 

Had a crush on someone at work --$5 

Had sex with someone you work with at work --$25 

Lied to your mate --$5 

Lied to your mate about the sex being good --$25 

So let me know how much you are worth...

I AIn't Caged No More

I am spring.
I am reborn again
another fresh beginning
mmmhmmm
comfortable again
In my own skin again
After the coldness
of winter's grin
I can boast of newness
Noticing my own feathers...
so bright
and spring-like
I am like a bird in your hand,
don't you understand
I got another chance
I'm chilling
because I know
a change is gonna come.....

I ain't caged no more